The Shockuation Room

Stupor- Walking around half in the world half in mars. (Marshall definition)

So close to super, yet so far away. When people decide that to drink themselves into submission or a stupor, it feels great. Yup, I said it. It feels great until the next day when you have to pick up the garbage.

Garbage men make good money, btw.

1. Drinking. Gosh is that easy. I mean to do. Not to quit, that’s plainly obviously currently impossible because you run through the gamete of possibilities. Can I drink water? Can I STILL HAVE A CHERRY COKE?!?!! Shaving in the dark to save money for a 40.
2. Such a crazy old man.
3. His daughter first, but raised so hard that it’s an impossible scene.
4. Sun step up.
5. The sun falls.
6. The mother intervenes, it’s too later.
7. Another daughter, too soon. Can’t handle this while we’re trying to have fun.
8. You could say she was attractively built, but I think that’s a Beatles line.
9. If you have ever got this far, and haven’t turned around you’re doing great.
10. Come out now.
11. Protect yourself with a silver spoon
12. Look up. Look down. Stand Up. Sit Down. Stretch, watch back. She said had always been working.
13. So, I thought I knew the answer. All I knew eventually was to want to shut up instead of digging my own soul.
14. Didn’t anybody tell him? Didn’t anyone notice?
15. Yes.

To drink is to be human. To drink again is also human. We need it, but the more we surround ourselves with toxicity the more unclean the brain and the body become.

Don’t look for a stupor, look for someone super.

Justin Marshall

Hello,

It’s James Dust again. I haven’t posted anything in a long time. I’ve been leaving that to my other contributor, James Dust, I mean, Coyote Rush.

I was created out of the need for another person to express himself a long time ago. It’s a name that was first created to post whatever on a Deadsy fan forum website type thing.

It became quite a joke.

However, sadly there are some people that always get hurt. I was not intended to create strife, I was only poking fun where I believed fun needed to be poked. I did like the band Deadsy as much as the rest of us that were on there. The problem is that I started a fight between certain fans as well as friends because I was being ignorant. Intentionally, not at first.

I didn’t realize the amount of work that went into organizing a fan base. That’s why besides James Dust, there were a lot of other nicknames on the board.

My friends and I attended, I believe three concerts in different places, the last being in Toledo. BAH BAH BAH…

Being young and naive, I didn’t know how hard other people were trying to keep up images and save face. I had always prided myself on being myself. Sadly, this lead to other things. My fear at first of being judged lead to me not caring what people thought at all. Which hurt a lot more people than it has helped at this point. Coyote and I feel like we o a world of apologizes for trying to understand the pain that other people are going through.

Again, being young I did not notice.

I’ve always been told I wore my heart on my sleeve. I never grasped that. I always believed that was a good thing. Until it became that every one of my actions caused someone to be reminded that I am still around. I am so lucky to be alive and he is AGAIN blowing another shot at it.

To me, I became so sick of people intervening into my life that I took the approach of, ok, you want to stare me down, I can do the same. I can look at you as you look at me and we can both try to figure out what the other one has went through. That test either turned into a laugh, a cry, a fight, or a completely too long stare down.

Basically, this is the problem for this website right now.

I have helped a lot of people become better. However, I am now taking my helping people as actually being a nuisance. Which is the exact opposite of what I ever wanted to do.

I was raised to believe I was a miracle. I was raised in the church. I prayed and still pray. I prayed so much when I was little that it was a never ending process for me. I tried so hard for good things to happen to people when a bad thing happened even at a young age it ripped my heart out completely.

This continued throughout my growing up. I was laughed at for asking too many questions, I was made to feel a fool because of my trying to follow orders. Yes, they had the best intentions, but, my questions were never fully answered. I would go to church and still ask questions at church, right out loud, everyone thought it was cute. I thought these questions were dead serious, because to me they were. I would ask well, how did this happen and they would read to me from the bible with thunderous volumes and I felt that God was really talking to me, because he was.

People in general try to do good. That’s why I surround myself with the people that I do. However, as I am getting old and turning into an old man, I realize that there are bad people out there, people that will purposely test you to see what you believe in and when they find a sliver, they will slide in there and make it a gapping wound that feels like it will NEVER heal again. Then after that, there are brand new people to tell you what their experience was like. However, no ones life is the same. As much as you compare and contrast, use different terms for other terms, the less someone is going to understand.

In the BIBLE the reason that the Fruit that Adam and Eve eat of is the Tree of Knowledge is because that is really drives or starves our bodies and souls.

When we give up: the body, the soul, food, drink, physical contact, we are stealing from one to give to another. That is why humans are MADE and intended to be with one mate their entire life. Humans’ minds are made up with chemicals that are from this Earth that God put on this planet. That means that unless we are balancing these chemicals in a proper professional way, we will always be a little off. That’s why WE ARE A LITTLE OFF.

I have no shame in admitting I am a little off, or weird, or a tad crazy, but when it gets done to putting one label on me, I immediately turn into protective crazed crazy crazy me. This is because I have stood and protected what I believe for so long that I can’t understand if I am doing a good job of it or if I am actually being the biggest cynic ever.

Yes, I have been cynical toward practically everything at this point in my life. However, I do pray, I do believe in Jesus and I do believe in America and the rest of the world as being GOOD.

There is a reason the bible was written the way it was. That’s why religion will always be touchy. Because some people are ready to go war for that. Same as family. However, just because you believe in what you believe doesn’t mean that has to be the first move. You don’t need to gear up for war every time you go outside to get the mail.

Sometimes it is as easy as saying hello to the woman that is trying to find diapers for her baby. Sometimes it’s as little as opening a door for a child that cannot open the door for themselves, or showing him/her how to wash their hands correctly. It doesn’t have to mean that you are stunting or killing the child. Nope, you ARE helping.

Keep your best intentions and your mind and your emotions will always be on your sleeve…

Thanks Justin,

James Dust

Here is some terrible Visual Basic code for an equal button on a Window – like, calculator.


'''

Select Case theOperation 'Case for which operation is being performed, determined by an enum
Case Operations.none 'No operation has been entered, error.
Throw New Exception("You must select an operation to be performed!") 'Throw exception
Case Operations.addition 'Addition operation
Dim add As AddNumbersClass = New AddNumbersClass
result = add.operation(numbers.Number1, numbers.Number2)
Case Operations.subtraction 'Subtraction operation
Dim subtract As SubtractNumbersClass = New SubtractNumbersClass
result = subtract.operation(numbers.Number1, numbers.Number2)
Case Operations.multiplication 'Multiplication operation
Dim multiply As MultiplyNumbersClass = New MultiplyNumbersClass
result = multiply.operation(numbers.Number1, numbers.Number2)
Case Operations.division 'Division operation
If (numbers.Number2 = 0) Then 'Can't divide by zero
Throw New Exception("Cannot divide by zero!")
End If
Dim divide As DivideNumbersClass = New DivideNumbersClass
result = divide.operation(numbers.Number1, numbers.Number2)
Case Operations.power 'Power operation
Dim power As PowerNumbersClass = New PowerNumbersClass
result = power.operation(numbers.Number1, numbers.Number2)
End Select
txtData.Text = result 'Put the result into the text box
PositionCursor() 'Reposition the cursor
Catch ex As Exception 'Catch any thrown exception
MessageBox.Show(ex.ToString() & vbCrLf)
btnClear.PerformClick()
End Try
End Sub


United States- 9:11 P.M. Marlette…

Where in the world do ideas come from?

More than likely the brain. That’s where we separate ourselves from species that have died off. There will always be controversy because as long as there have been ideas there have been naysayers, haters, cynics, disbelievers and sadly the ones that can’t think for themselves.

What is fair and what is unfair in this world?

Everyone has a burden to bare. If that is that once someone had an idea and they let it go: yes, that is sad. If someone ever let someone out of their life because it was not for the greater good, that can be seen as both sad and positive correct? The more we fight and disagree who is actually right, the more what we are fighting for begins to become: jaded, confused, hazed, razzed, stabbed, beaten, abused, and dirtied.

That’s not fair to anyone in my opinion.

As long as there have been ideas: which by my own brain means abstract thoughts that have not been scientifically proven because they did not pass a certain test, there have been tragedies, parodies, comedies and whatever else.

In America, where we all believe in being free…

What does that mean!? What does that mean to you? The more bills we pass then void what does that mean? Does it mean that we are omitting that at one point we had this problem, but this hot button issue NEEDS a cement plug on it?

The House, The Senate, The Legislative, The White House, The Oval Office, The Pentagon:

Those our are checks and balances.

The Churches, The Schools, The Universities… The real world, the working world.

Are they not all the same if we are striving toward the same goal?

Again- communication, trust, respect and actions matter.

Ideas- Yes, they matter too. Who has the right and who has the fight in them to make this work?

Our world is a troubled place. AND no one should have to know all the troubles.

The Earth is a Blue- Green ball. Perfect in its environment. Imperfections: Yes, that’s all around us. Do we believe that the majority of people are pulling for the same goal. Or do we go to war against EVERYTHING.

That’s why we have checks and balances. That’s why we have people that recite history, that’s why we have people that rewrite history, that’s why we have people that can NEVER know it all.

Trying to understand it all can be the biggest problem.

However, blocking the creative freedom of the people that are out in the world trying to make a living in whatever way they think is correct is plain wrong. If, someone has made a mistake and plagiarized one thing, does that make them a forever liar?

If when a group of teenagers are in their garage and they say, “I like the Beatles.” And they play Love Me Do. Does that mean that for the rest of their life everything they do and create is flawed and can never be perfect?

That’s why there are questions.

That’s why there are people that try to have answers and people that will never have answers.

A copy of a copy is still a copy.

That’s genetics.

A song created and a song enjoyed is just that. An idea that has came to fruition and is in the creators mind: Perfect at that time.

Censorship at times is necessary. However, censorship that is limiting growth is behind neglect. It’s out and out madness, blindness and stupidity.

Yes! There will be people that always push the limits. But, that’s why there is limits! There have to be, but there have to be people standing up saying, “I believe, that what I believe, is what I believe and what I believe is my opinion, take it or leave it and I think it’s right.”

You can’t take away that right or you can just cross out what the founding fathers wanted. Thus, destroying what the country was founded on, thus taking the base of EVERYTHING we have ever stood for away.

As a male in the free world of America, don’t take away the right to be creative.

If someone practices a Mozart song for 3 years. Shouldn’t that person have the right to have people listen and be funded for their work?

We can volunteer our entire lives, but if we aren’t going to take care of ourselves, who is?

As I am writing this I am getting confused.

I can pretty much bet that someone has written something almost exactly like this.

Does that mean that I researched for 400243024 hrs, to write this just so I can be a liar?
No. I am writing this from my brain, these words are words that have always existed in some way. But, someone has to arrange them or they make no sense. If someone has ideas, but can’t begin or end the ideas shouldn’t there be someone that is there to fill in the holes? The wounds? The gaps in time and space?

Seriously.

Almost of the time I write stream of consciousness and do not go back and change what I did. Some call that type of writing bashing, ramming, jamming ideas down. Whatever. Somethings work for people, some OTHERS, type, erase, type, erase and are never happy when they press save.

Either way. Time will tell.

Are there things I have written that I will forever be sorry that the thought came through my mind. YES! And that is what being a HUMAN BEING MEANS. So…

If you want to not let me publish this on my website that my brother and I started as a joke and has developed into a lot more. Whatever. Sometimes a friend becomes family, sometimes a joke becomes $ and sometimes nothing becomes nothing.

Take your pick, I guess.

But, don’t pass another law you will need to repeal because you did it out of haste or in spite of something else.

Please, slow down. Please, think twice, please make the right

JAM

Hello everyone!!

Once upon a time there was a person. He woke up and asked what he needed to do today. Another person, let’s call him other person said, son you need to get out of bed.

Player 1: I am out of bed that’s why I asked what I needed to do today.

Player 2: You’re out of bed, but what have you forgot to do today?

Player 3: Opens door, listens… “Why are you two fighting again.”

Player 4: Parachutes from the sky… YO YO YO YO YOY OY YOYOYOYOYOYO

Player 1: WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE?

Player 2: THEY ARE THE OTHER PLAYERS? get it?

Player 1: No.

Player 3: “HUH, Why are you fighting?”

Player 2: “Have you looked in the toilet recently?”

Player 4: AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH dat’s hilarious!

wAIT…

Who has laughy taffy?

No one, but I have some laffy taffy, there is a good joke on it. Who wants to hear it?

PLAYER 1-4: IDO! I mean… I do.

Player: Who starts the joke?

pLAYter 3: This shure is getting confusing.

The end at 9:47 p.m. on a Monday, In Marlette.

Dedicated to the reporters/tipsters of the Shockuation.

Thank you again.

E-i-n-c-

JAM

You’re welcome for all you did.

Now stay in Michigan where it’s nice.

By: Jazin and Justin

“I said, the main ducts, their not blowing there!” lied T.G.H.L.B.H.M.S.S.T.S.H again as he pointed up to the outside air conditioning ducts, which are in fact, a huge waste of money and resources.

The Building that was never fully built

The Importance Of Self Esteem
 
When is the last time you stopped and thought how important self-esteem is? It plays a factor in your life nearly every second of every day. Self-esteem also is connected to self image which we will cover later.
 
Self esteem can be defined as an individual’s self assessment of their strengths and weaknesses. However, I believe that self-esteem goes even deeper than that description. A crucial piece of information is that self-esteem can be improved no matter how great or how terrible you feel about yourself.
 
Take an honest assessment of your current self-esteem.
 
What are some of your strengths?
 
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What do you FEEL are some of your weaknesses?
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Now you’ve came up with strengths and weaknesses, which was easier for you to identify? Was it your strengths or weaknesses?
 
That last question is a key component that contributes to your overall self-esteem. If it is easier for you to come up with weaknesses rather than strengths, don’t panic, it doesn’t mean that you are forever locked into negative self talk.
 
In my opinion, it is far easier to have poor self-esteem than to have positive or good self-esteem. It is easier to complain about all the things we don’t like about ourselves or events that didn’t go our way: over and over… and OVER. For example: “My hair is stupid, and I don’t like how all my pants fit! My mother thinks that I need to quit my job! I deserved that job I applied for, I nailed that interview and didn’t even get a call back to tell me I wasn’t good enough.”
 
 
Again, take a second to think about how petty and deconstructive those statements are. By letting your brain only focus on the negative, what do you think your attitude is going to reflect?
 
Let me give you a hint: YOU’RE GOING TO FEEL MISERABLE! So stop it!
 
Individuals that don’t feel good about themselves can be spotted across the room without having to be watched for long. There are ways that individuals are able to discover how you another person is feeling, examples are: how a person sits in a chair, are their arms crossed, aggressively rocking in their chair, eye contact or lack of, the way an individual dresses, where they sit in a room: front row or hiding in the back, ( doesn’t matter if it is the classroom or an office meeting) how they walk (fast, slow or appearing to be carrying the weight of the world) head up or down, posture can be a sign of what is really going on in said person’s mind. Again, the basic premise I keep coming back to is, body language can be a dead giveaway on how an individual is feeling about themselves.
 
Remember, this is your life!
 
The negative or toxic people in your life DON’T CONTROL YOU, NO ONE CAN MAKE YOU BELIEVE OR DO ANYTHING! (REMEMBER THAT!!!!!) You need to remind yourself that as many times as you have to, it doesn’t mean that you’re a bad person if every day you say “I will not hang out with James because he triggers me to think poorly of myself.”
 
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Down here now!

Remind yourself again and again! As you can see as I am typing this I have already forgot how many times I have tried to remind myself/you to think positively and cut the negative people out of your life. Sometimes it is impossible to completely remove a person from your life, but you can stop yourself from having the same argument, over, and over, AND… Yup, you guessed it… OVER!
 
If you have old friends that constantly treat you like you aren’t worth their time unless you use or abuse a substance or they force you to believe that you must be used or abused you: then what are those “old friends?” It sounds an awful lot like a terrible relationship that needs to be erased, or cleaned from your life. In other words they are not a true friend. A true friend can look at you and known that something is wrong. They know you well enough to probe when it is important to absolutely let the fear or problem GO. Some of those toxic friends have made you feel great and they may not even realized how damaging the relationship was becoming, but when there is a relationship not built on having each others’ best interest there is a massive possibility for an abusive relationship to take shape or blossom into a living nightmare. As time goes and you are able to respect yourself those decisions begin to look as clear as an azure sky.
 
The urge of positive feedback, reassurance and love with always be a crucial part of a person’s psyche, but don’t let it consume you! Remember who you are and what you like about yourself. By letting yourself get consumed in a circular cycle of blame is extremely dangerous. It becomes more hazardous when you’re looking for what you need or desire in all the wrong places. It is like a highly confused Ferris Wheel with a disgruntle carnival worker who is spending his time texting while eating ten to fifteen pounds of cotton candy. Perhaps it is me, but I would have to wager that could possibly lead to a fairly frightening outcome. My guess is it would go something like this: people are laughing and smiling at the view enjoying the company of the person they are riding with and suddenly, without a hint of impending doom, with absolutely no warning the worker and ride simultaneously go haywire! Causing the ride to accelerate or dump passengers at height or speed directly off in to the big sleep. It may be me, but that sounds like the worst rollercoaster I have ever heard.
 
Your conceived problem(s) can last a whole life time particularly if you let them. It could be as phony as the scenario I discussed before or it could be stranger than fiction (real life) that we never ever want to relive again. That’s the joy of forgiveness and starting over.
 
Sorry, but, back to my redundancies.
 
When cleaning the same problem over and over your effort is stunted by the attempt to NEVER let anyone know the real you. There are a lot of different situations that you can fall into. Like, you’ve been told how big of a problem you have been all of your life or every time you have a moment of weakness someone comes out of nowhere and tells you that you’re no problem, I will take the blame for you. Again, confusion grows, guilt, resentment of yourself and isolation come out of hiding. And all the channels created to assist you in fixing or alleviating some your problem(s) become rearranged madness. The fear to tell the one person you know you need to tell becomes a larger issue than need be because admission of your problem, how big or how small allows a sliver, a crack a moment of weakness or inadequacy: and as humans, no one wants to feel small, accidental or unimportant.   
 
 
 I believe that after that rant it is important to discover people that have made a difference in your life without there being a concrete reward. It could be anyone, but please keep it clean and positive.
 
List at least three individuals that made a conscientious effort to help those in need without a guaranteed reward.
 
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Remember that because the people you chose above made an effort to help as many under privileged people around the world doesn’t mean that they never took time to care for themselves. I do believe it is important to note that by choosing the above people, there is great admiration toward them. I have a pretty good idea that one of the people you chose above was not Charles Manson.
 
Do this: look around the room (in the mirror when you have a chance to be alone) to realize just how lucky and great you are! So do it! Look around the room with a legitimate smile. Go a step farther, say “Hello.” Want to feel even better? Stand up, shake a person’s hand. I bet you will feel better about yourself. This not only helps you, it helps everyone else in the room. Don’t be afraid to let yourself laugh: that’s good medicine. 
 
Again an important factor to consider is how important it is to understand what self-esteem means to you. After you discover and can put into practice what it means to you: there are a lot of ways to boost your self-esteem. Remember to stay positive!
 
However, if you are struggling with your self-esteem, don’t kid yourself! It is better to be honest with yourself, locate what you are struggling with and eventually realize how you can improve your self-esteem over time. It is not going to be an over-night fix.
 
I believe that it is very important to describe in your own words what self-esteem means to you.
 
Like I mentioned before it may be difficult to describe what self-esteem means to you.  If you are struggling with coming up with positive self-esteem self talk ask yourself what would you suggest to yourself as a pick me up? I would suggest thinking of a person that you respect or believe to have high self-esteem and write down some words that describe them.
 
Positive self talk leads to positive self esteem.
 
The following are some examples to find what self esteem means to you.
 
 
We are not looking for any specific words, just words that mean something to you about that person.
 
“I like myself because I go out of my way to help people. I feel confident in my ability to be a great parent/son/daughter/cousin and so on.”
 
             

   
 
 
 
I know I am sounding like a broken record, but it is important to hammer home some of these messages, so on that note. Now you’ve done the above: in your own words define what self-esteem means to you?
 
             
Now you have focused on your self-esteem there is always more thoughts and ways to improve self-esteem.
 
More Ways To Improve Self Esteem

 
http://www.discoveryeducation.com/teachers/free-lesson-plans/self-esteem.cfm
http://www.selfempoweringtips.com/self-esteem/Self-Esteem-Lesson-Plans.html
http://www.selfempoweringtips.com/self-esteem/Activities-That-Promote-Self-Esteem.html
 
http://www.self-esteem-nase.org/rate.php

Gleaned by: JAM/Dictated, but not read well by Sanskrit Grumpay